I felt a bit lonely this afternoon..
I looked out from the window and I saw very beautiful view..
I couldn’t help not to day dreaming.. ><
It made me feel miserable and I started seeing someone that I love.
I saw my dad’s face, he’s smiling at me, he looked young and great.
My mind flied to several wonderful moments long time ago..
When I was still a little girl, when I was still a daddy’s girl, when I still have no worry…
I remember I love to go out, just went around to the town almost every afternoon with my dad. Then, we also liked to ride bicycle every Sunday morning. He really liked to go around and I really love to go with him.
He was big, he was strong, he was funny, and I know he loves me very much.
He liked to make joke, he liked to talk to my friends. He couldn’t stand on doing nothing, there’s always something he did, he couldn’t spend his time just to sit still and do nothing. My dad was always busy.
Oh, it would be very great if he were here with me,
We can enjoy this nice place together, we can walk to the lake, see the beautiful swans, or just sit under the tree…
Yet, I know, even though he’s here, I don’t know whether we can walk together or not..
Everything is really different now..
Yesterday I called you,
but.. it’s hard to understand what you were saying. U are the same person, you’re still my great dad, but it’s just not the same anymore, everything’s changing..
You couldn’t talk easily and clearly, you couldn’t walk to wherever you want, even sometime it’s difficult for you just to stand. I don’t know for how many times you have fallen down..
It’s really truly different,
You can’t have a chat with me, u can’t tell a joke to me.
You almost do nothing recently, you just day dreaming, sit in front of the TV, but u don’t watch it.. U even barely smile..!
I miss your laugh dad, I miss your advice, I even miss you get angry with me,
I miss my strong, humorous, lovable dad..
I know you don’t like your condition now, I know it’s really hard for u, but I know you are a strong man, I know u will not give up easily, I know you’ll struggle and survive, I trust u..
Miss u so much dad,